You know when you are sick for a couple of days and when you finally feel good again, what a relief it is?
I’m starting to wonder how you make that transition when you’ve been feeling bad for months and months (read over a year).
I have to wonder if I’m even capable of knowing what it’s like to feel good anymore.
I know this sounds terrible. And it’s crazy to be feeling somewhat human because there is always the fear that I’ll get back into my old ways and hit rock bottom again.
And does it matter that pumping my body with 1500mg of steroids in 3 days brought on this good feeling?