Thursday, June 12, 2008

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back; Or Is It Two Steps Forward, One Step Back?

Lately I can’t tell.

Right now I think I’m at a pretty good place illness-wise. I’ve been feeling better than I have in a while and it has definitely been a surprising (and much needed) change.

Although the price you pay for feeling better is that when you relapse or have a flare, it seems to hit surprisingly hard.

Anyway, the thing I’m contending with currently is my mood. It’s very up and down, and mostly, not the most positive.

I find that I’m reverting to anger a lot.

I seem to be asking why? about a lot of things, and I know that, that is the wrong question to be asking.


  1. I would have to say that in order to understand yourself, you have to hear the anger. Similar to the expression 'it takes the hard times to appreciate the good ones'. I believe there is a lot of honesty in anger and welcome it from time to time - as long as I make certain I limit the amount of time I spend there.

    That, I think, is the tough part... ;)

  2. "Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host.
    But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean."
    -- Maya Angelou

  3. Thanks Maria and Solaroil for your thoughtful comments on anger!