Originally,
I was planning to give a play-by-play by day post-cortisone shot. But there’s really no point.
I cannot
believe how life-changing one shot can be.
If I knew
this is what would happen, I would have done it 7 years ago. You get so used to living in pain that you
don’t realize what it does to you until you’re not in pain anymore.
As I
mentioned in a previous post, I received a cortisone shot for bursitis in my
hip. I have had hip pain since I first
got sick, but have never treated the hip directly.
I was
super nervous about it. My doctor was
very encouraging, (and truth be told, I wanted to chicken out) but ultimately,
I realized that I didn’t really want to deal with my severe hip pain anymore if
there was a potential to remedy it.
My rheum
walked me through the whole thing as she did it. First, she cleaned the area. Then she felt around and told me to tell her
the spot that hurt the most. Then she
marked it. Then she sprayed lidocaine on
the area – there is lidocaine in the injection too, to minimize pain. Then she cleaned it again. And then she did the injection. The whole process probably took less than
seven minutes. It was more
nerve-wracking than anything else, just the anticipation of not knowing what to
expect.
Overall,
the injection wasn’t super painful, just annoying. The pain afterward was low and dull. That night, the pain went from low and dull
to more persistent. Certain movements
hurt, and it was hard to bend directly from the hip. It was also painful to sleep on.
But not
joint painful. A different, achier kind
of pain, sort of like when you get a flu shot.
The night
I got the shot, my boyfriend encouraged me to use an icepack or take some
Aleve, but I didn’t because I really wanted to be able to gauge my pain, feel
exactly where it was coming from, to see if the pain was actually from the
injection or pain from my hip.
Despite
this improvement, I probably won’t run any marathons – which I didn’t do
pre-illness – and no offense to my friends @hurtblogger and @titaniumtriathlete
– but I am moving with a spring in my step that hasn’t been there in a long
time.
It
actually gets me kind of emotional thinking about it, about how one little shot
can work wonders.
I no
longer fear the cortisone shot, but now I fear the pain that is no longer
there.
And then I
wonder. Is the minimal pain that I am
sometimes feeling really there, or am I so used to the pain that it’s gone but
not forgotten? It’s like having phantom
pains when the offending appendage is no longer there.
I think
the minimal pain I am in now is related to muscle memory, having to relearn all
these different positions that my hip hasn’t been able to get into, like
folding my leg under me, sitting cross legged, or sitting on the floor and
being able to get up, myself, without help.
It almost feels like I pulled a muscle or something.
But every twinge
of pain makes me wonder if the cortisone shot is losing its effectiveness
already.
When I got
three days of steroid infusions right after I was diagnosed, I didn’t really
savor the pain-free time I had. I took
for granted that eventually the pain relief would wear off. Ultimately, I only got a month of relief from
the infusions.
And I’m
not going to make that same mistake now.
I’m going to do what I can with the time I have, with the pain-free hip
that I now have.
When I saw my therapist, she was like what’s up with you? You seem different that last week. Lighter. And you’re smiling…Yeah…
I got a shot in the arm...in my hip...
This is
me…jumping for joy…
Hip, hip,
hooray! (Oh man, that was a really bad pun)
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